No track marks, street corners, or pawning stolen merch, but a junky just the same..
Thursday, March 24, 2011
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Shit-talkers prepare your keyboards- I'm about to go get some oxy with Jean. R is at preschool and I have nothing to do all day. Skipped my suboxone. I hope I at least enjoy it.
I'm assuming the "shit-talkers" are us, the commenters. Sigh.....all we have said is that you need help from others if you want to be free from your addiction. Those comments aren't from judgment,...but from our concern for your life...truly. I'm the mom of an addict,..and as such, have a place in my heart for addicts, due to their challenges from this disease. I don't have a place in my heart for the behaviors that result from addiction. Just consider this,....that the using is just a symptom,..of what is a need,...that CAN be healed. You are worth it,...to yourself and your daughter.
So,...just really consider....getting help, making it a priority. A great beginning would be to find a good drug counselor, and a therapist for what drives your hurt and urge to use. If nothing changes in a big way....nothing changes. You're already seeing that. I hope you really think about it...and let us know. May God bless you.
Sounds like you are proud of your failures. Beachteacher is right. Nothing changes if nothing changes. I know you can't do it your way and you are starting to know it too. Sad,sad, sad. Please get some help. You are worth it.
Why don't you two ever comment when I'm doing good? Silence when I had 2 weeks off the oxy, lot's of talk about what a failure I am when I get high for the first time in a couple weeks. Why do you only have something to say when I'm screwing up? I'm starting again tomorrow.
Do you want a standing ovation for a few days off drugs? Give me a break. I have a daughter like you. She is 10 years older, but the rest is the same. I won't bother anymore. Reasoning with a drug addict is like rasoning with a telephone pole. Unless you try to find out what is really wrong with you, nothing will ever be right. I feel sorry for your kid. She deserves better than a drug addicted mother. God's speed.
I'm assuming the "shit-talkers" are us, the commenters. Sigh.....all we have said is that you need help from others if you want to be free from your addiction. Those comments aren't from judgment,...but from our concern for your life...truly. I'm the mom of an addict,..and as such, have a place in my heart for addicts, due to their challenges from this disease. I don't have a place in my heart for the behaviors that result from addiction. Just consider this,....that the using is just a symptom,..of what is a need,...that CAN be healed. You are worth it,...to yourself and your daughter.
ReplyDeleteSo,...just really consider....getting help, making it a priority. A great beginning would be to find a good drug counselor, and a therapist for what drives your hurt and urge to use. If nothing changes in a big way....nothing changes. You're already seeing that.
I hope you really think about it...and let us know. May God bless you.
Sounds like you are proud of your failures. Beachteacher is right. Nothing changes if nothing changes. I know you can't do it your way and you are starting to know it too. Sad,sad, sad. Please get some help. You are worth it.
ReplyDeleteWhy don't you two ever comment when I'm doing good? Silence when I had 2 weeks off the oxy, lot's of talk about what a failure I am when I get high for the first time in a couple weeks. Why do you only have something to say when I'm screwing up? I'm starting again tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteI can only speak for me. It's because I knew the next part was coming(sadly)....because you think you can do this on your own successfully.
ReplyDeleteYou never reply to that...that there's something underlying the using, that needs to be helped.
I'm not going to comment and just keep saying the same thing that you don't want to hear anyway..but I do wish you well.
Do you want a standing ovation for a few days off drugs? Give me a break. I have a daughter like you. She is 10 years older, but the rest is the same. I won't bother anymore. Reasoning with a drug addict is like rasoning with a telephone pole. Unless you try to find out what is really wrong with you, nothing will ever be right. I feel sorry for your kid. She deserves better than a drug addicted mother. God's speed.
ReplyDeleteIt's your life and your daughter's life you are ruining with or without comments. So keep at it!
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